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♥ Thursday, January 28, 2010

i am sick
and
i am tired
sobs
anyone pls
save me )):

青い/葵

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♥ Tuesday, January 26, 2010

nothing much to blog
i just dont feel very well today
):
very xin ku very painful
tml goin doc in the morning
and of all time when danna not around ):
hais
i want more time with danna):
i really hell mis him alot
i mis my aunt too
hais
):
i mis her too
i mis grandma too
hais
time for me aint enff
really not much man
X(
so sad
i wan danna right now
cause I'm in pain ):
hais
feelin suck
dont wanna go work
sobs
wanna rest more
hais

青い/葵

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danna i do understand why u wanna sign on
u wan to have a good life
dont need to suffer anymore next time
i do understand
i know how much myself dont wanna see u sign on
but this is a no choice thing
and u say it for our good too
my dear i dont know how long our rs will last
i dont mean it to throw cold water on u and our rs
but i dont know ur next time will have me in it or not
so next time de thing i dont dare to say now
i just happy now enff for me

danna i mis u so much
have u notice we haven been spenting much time together?
hmmm
i mis the time when i off and sleep beside u when i wake up i see your bear face
and we will go and eat breakfast together
):

i hate my job so much
it suck...grrr
will quit soon and rot my life away xD
hahhaa
anyway
now i wanna just wait for my boss to "kick"me away xD
maybe she will?who know..lols
hmmm
tired le
time for bed le
if not danna will scold me again
hmmm

oyasumi miinaa
loves
ja ja

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♥ Thursday, January 21, 2010

yest tml is Friday
demo
i cant seee danna yet
my aunt is til here
hehehesss
i am going to mis my aunt when she went back to Thailand ):
haissss
now de me
like lifelesss sia
what is in my head anyway?
feel so empty
somehow i think it my baby who is pullin me and danna closer
think of my baby i will give in all i have to danna
anyway
this two nights i been watching ayabie vids
make me so so in love with aoi sama
wahhaa
how i WISH i have they stuffs
many many of them
anyway oni say he will be goin to japan this year
sooo oni u say will get their stuff for aoi ne
sooo thank so so much
i hope it will be true ...*wishin and prayin*
hehhesss
love u oni
hontoni^^
oni like to sayang my head and i feel love and dote by him
where else kor wont sayang my head.....but i know he do love and care me the most too
just like oni to me ^^
today off went out with mummy and aunts
fun yes i do have fun laughin away
(:
hahahaaa
lols
stil i hope they are use to it
and enjoy themselves
^^
one more day till sat they fly back
):
i am sorry i cant be there to send u guys to the airport *sadded*
hate this kind of work man
grrrrr
hais
tml work le
one day off really not enff for me
):
just now enff for me and danna and family too
):
danna...i am missin ur hug
=\
hmmmm
sleepy le
i will go bed after listenin to one more ayabie song ne
I LOVE FAMILY
I LOVE DANNA
I LOVE AOI SAMA
I LOVE AYABIEEEEE
I LOVE HIME
I LOVE ELSA MAMA
I LOVE MY BAKA VAMP JUN AND SALLY DEAR
I LOVE DAICHI PAPA*PLS COME BACK SOON*
I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE ON MY LOVE LIST NE
AISHITERUUUUU
MUACKSSSS

ps:to my shun yao didi
hmmmm di ar
i hope u r happy
and let see alright
^^
jyjy ba
lovees...

WAHHAHA

青い/葵

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♥ Wednesday, January 20, 2010

nothing to blog anyway
i mis my sch day =\
haiss
how i wish i can turn time back...
and i been askin myself what do i really want?
is he the right guy i am lookin for?
as well i ask myself am i the right gal he is lookin for?
will we get marry in the end?
hmmmm
alot of ? to what i thinking this few days

青い/葵

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♥ Tuesday, January 19, 2010

葵 is very tired
very very tired
葵 wish everything go her way ):
葵 want to be happy
葵 wanna have alot of thing
葵 like many many money
):
lately 葵 is very unhappy
hais
dont know what come over me
hais
it late i really should go to bed
oyasumi minna

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♥ Monday, January 18, 2010

i want to be danna wife
like for real
but i need more then a promise
i need what danna say to be true
i dont want it just words and promises but it end up nothing
i dont want just "try my best"
i wanna see try my best to be like for real
i wanna see the light and hope in this rs
danna i hope u do understand what i tryin to tell u
i am not just working hard to my own
is for the both of us
maybe u may think i am hell selfish
ok i am
sorry
but i know u r the one i dont wanna hurt the most
i swear i dont wanna hurt u
my words maybe hurtful
demo i really meant no harm
):
it ok to cry in front of me
dont have to hold back ur tears not to let me see them fall
u wipe my tears for me i will do the same if ur tears roll down ur cheek
i wanna have a good life with u
no more xin ku le
very scare le
):
hais
i wanna make things better for us
gambate
aoi sleepy now
shall go to bed now ba i guess
oyasumi everyone

and gomene elsa mama
i dont mean to make u worry
sorry
i love u

baby gal
pls let ur father grow up abit
dont let mummy cry anymore
u know what mummy is thinkin
pls try to help ur father
this is all i hope
i'm missin u badly too
want u back as fast too
just wait alright
love u my child..

青い/葵

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♥ Thursday, January 14, 2010

yest tml night
i cant wait for danna to come back home
i am tired now
so tired
may go bed early ^^
hehe
i wll be good today
anyway
i must thanks oni for the dinner and ride home
i dont wanna waste his money de
but oni lazy
next time my turn to treat u back ((:
oyasumi everyone

*baby i mis u*

青い/葵

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i 'm so so tired ne
and i nothing to comment or post today
just tired
hope to get more off day
and more pay
hmmmm
danna keep fall asleep on me
which make me very unhappy
haisss
hmmm
very tired too i guess
oh well it late i better to goin to bed
oyasumi everyone

青い/葵

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♥ Wednesday, January 13, 2010

i cant upload any photosss
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
angry
tmd
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wana post my one year de present
HUMPH!!!!~
grrrrrrrrr
anyway
danna will be staying at my place when feb come
):
i hope he get use to it
i mis him and her and her so much
how i wish grandma is here with me
how i wish baby is with me
how i wish danna here now
);
hais
life is so short
last last dec i went back i still saw grandma
but months after i come back to sg
grandma is gone
is like so suddenly
as i know grandma is weak demo the last time i saw her she seem so fine to me
the next thing i know she is gone
one week she is gone
i found out i have a little life in me
sis say maybe is grandma
i smile
demo weeks later
i need to take her away for her good
and our good
i hope she do understand
):
danna and me didnt meant to do what we wanted
we just have no choice
i hope she is up there with my grandma happy
and waiting to be my little gal again
just wait mummy want u back
i love u grandma
i mis u so much
i hope u and grandpa is happy now
no more pain
and taking care of my baby for this while
till she is ready to be back
pls dont blame me for what i done
for now i need to work hard
as for danna
i dont know if he wanna sign on
well i know sign on will have alot of money
but time with me also no diff as now
):
and danna u know how much i dont wanna be alone
i dont know ba
think about it urself ba
if u wanna sign on then go ba
hmmmm
today went back to danna place
to get my stuff back
i didnt know i have to much stuff
i stil got 3 more bears haven take back
omgggg
i wonder how to take them back now
and soon danna will be stayin with me
how to sleep with so much bears
lols
well well
things will have a way i guess
hmmmm
so tired now
i think i will go bed soon
till here ba
i now think too much also get to no where
oh ya
oni got a tattoo *HUMPH*
i envy i also want one ):
grrrrrr
and guess what oni say i can get one too if i really can
cause he have no right to say to cause he already got one
lols
if danna like this think jiu hao le
HIS GO BIGG OK!!!!
oyasumi miina X)

青い/葵

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♥ Tuesday, January 12, 2010

maybe sally is right
haha..*i'm mad*
hais...
sally ..elsa mama
relax i will be fine
daijobu
(:
hmmm
i guess everything should be fine by now
):
Agnes today told me something which i think i should talk to danna about it
i hope danna do listen to me
till here ba
*moody*

青い/葵

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♥ Monday, January 11, 2010

i do know daddy is sick
i do know jason always talk in his sleep
i do know mummy is mad at me for some reason
i am home but no one seem to notice me
and i am not home everyone in the family start to notice
and say i am this and that
worthless?is this the word to use on my danna?
he maybe worthless at time
but he try every way to keep me by him
try every way to make me happy
well most of the time he do make me cry alot
and heart broken too
but i do the same too
i make him sad and heart broken too
but my sis u have no right to say my bf
even when time to time danna say bad about u
i told him the same thing
"u have no right to say my sis*
"no matter how bad or what u have no right to say anything bad about her"
no one really understand me
not even my own sis
not even danna
i keep almost everything to myself
i dont wanna see danna worry about me
or anyone who love me worry
i know i am a kid
i tink like a kid
act like one too
but pls
at time i do know what i want and think
less then a month danna goin to have no place to stay
):
i am very useless
i dont know how to help him
hate my job ):
never like my job
hais
how can i help danna *thinking*
i feel so ke lian for him
hais
life so so unfair
):
*moody*

青い/葵

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♥ Friday, January 8, 2010

happy one year anni to danna
1st hor
i dont really feel very happy about today
but then i have to if not danna will worry
haissss
so sian
nothing to blog also la
so yeah
end here
bath and sleep early
oyasumi

青い/葵.

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♥ Thursday, January 7, 2010

i am tired from work
):
i hate work
so much
i wanna have more rest ):
haisss
and i really mis danna alot
i never once mis him like how i am missin him now):

i think my brother jason is havin too much fun in school or he is so stress up in sch
he been talkin in his sleep the pass few nights already
i am kinda worry ):

this week my off day is gone
haiss
and it tml le
our anni=\
somehow dont really feel very happy ):
haissss
dont know ba
till there ba
nights everyone

青い/葵.

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♥ Tuesday, January 5, 2010

happy new year knowing each other danna (:
i still rem the day what u r wearing....
the 1st movie we watch
the place we went
i think i can rem every single detail about that every day (:
and i somehow do thanks my sis for intro us (:
((:
hmmm
3days later is our 1years together anni
i hope u book out that every day =/
*pray*
and i found many many friends on fb
the one i been lookin for
tusya and na na
i hope they add me ):
*pray*
i dont know what to post already
lols
till her then
ja-ne

青い/葵

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♥ Monday, January 4, 2010

my 1st post of the new year
((:
happy new year miiina ((:
rem this aOi maybe emo emo at time demo sia
aoi love every single one in her love list ne ((:
AISHITERU NEEEE
rem to love aoi back xDDD
lols
jokin
no matter what i will love u gguysssss

31st dec(new year eve)
go pub drink
i think i am drunk or somthing
i am mad at danna for something and
i cry like hell missin baby alot
):
allen say alot of thing to me
demo
i stil keep cryin )):
so mis baby so much
and i know i cant get her back now
):
haissss

i just read danna post i feel so sad
)):
so so sad
i dont know how to help him
i know i am so usless to him
i cant do anything to help him also
as i dont know what to do
)):
i just feel so sad
i dont know ah ma used to be like how
demo i know now ah ma is nice
really nice
and she dote danna alot alot
can feel it and see it
hais
danna stil no place to stay
should i give his mother the card?
hmmmm
i scare they will think i pity them or somthing
hais

dont know what to do now also
tml is one year since the day i met danna
i stil rem where and what he wear on that very 1st day
and friday is our anni ((:
hmmm
i hope we can last
*hopin*

til here ba
at work now
lols
ja----

青い/葵

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