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♥ Wednesday, September 29, 2010

I miss him so much le.. 16 days ?? Count down? -.-"""Haissss..oh finally tml it fri..and i can finally get to meet sweet on sat
and ask well sat is celine de birthday,but im having dinner with her on sun..lols and the "family "lols..wonder why daddy and mummy celeb her birthday for her this year?hmmm..oh well ... up to them to think ba
anyway today work was like rushin thing all over ): he not yet call me today): wonder what he doin over there
is so bored alone at home without his sms /call
feel emo?but i think i can do it
will be strong
somehow i like tryin this 3weeks to think about our rs hard,,it like we been fighting almost everytime when he is home or even before he fly off
which is like tell me how to hold on ): make me damn sad when i know each time we fight
his love for me is up and down
im not askin for a up and down love ,it a love that he will love me always and even more
so since this 3 weeks we wont be seeing each other jiu better then make me think,,danna im sorry if u read diao this post..just this is how i feel now
and wish and hope this 3weeks u will also think if u got the time to ,to think am i really the gal u askin for to spent ur whole life with?do u really wanna think about our marry de things over again?am i really the gal u love ?
but for now danna i do miss u alot..wishin and hopin u are here by me..
baby..i love u
and i really do
just want to think ba
and oh it the last day of the month again

GAMBATE AOI CHAN

and to that friend i really and truly love deeply:
im no longer ur lover,or ur toy..pls understand now i love my cedric alot
i dont wanna name out ur name here to spoil our rs as friends which we built up up for years,,but u will always be my beloved friends i have...
be happy for me as im getting marry..even that someone is not who u know very well
but pls dont ill treat him and say his bad to me
cause u dont know any single thing about cedric
and i know u are worry for me at some part,but believe me cedric can make me happy like u use to make me smile
now he is my smile
my dear friend..i hope our friendship go on for a long long time...
u will always be my friends the best one forever

青い/葵

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♥ Tuesday, September 28, 2010

i start again...missin him like hell much..readin other mummy to be de blog.make me mis my little one again..so badly ):wishin he is here with me held me tigh and tell me again she will be back to our arms again):..wonder how is his ride on the plane?he told me he got window sit..and he can see the world
look how silly he is
hais
):

青い/葵

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♥ Sunday, September 26, 2010

i want to go out so badly with danna
wanna spent like every single moment with him before he fly off
but like if we didnt go out keepin him at home he will feel bored
and if i let him go play mj
i will like kinda unhappy as he spent time on the mj table then be with me
*head desk*
hais
life suck like ttm
i wanna die thinkin tml is mon again
:S
have to start workin like mad like this
cheryl gonna quit soon
she say she ta han one year plus liao
so she cant take it anymore
so yeah
this soon" for her liao
):
i tot i make new friend liao
but she leaving soon
oh well
will give her the blessin and all the best ba
cheryl say faster go is the best
as the place is really not for us
hmmm
for now i stil find it ok
not very good
but stil not the best of my choice in work
oh well,,,will and shall see how things go by ba
countin 2 days till danna fly off
i hope everything go well for him there
he will jyjy de i hope
will be a good gal i promise till he come back
not gonna spent like much dont want he come i no money
and yest allen birthday
well pz drunk like shit
tmd*lols
hmmm i think we all enjoy (:
happy birthday again sis
and my cb lim bei agnes no come make me mis her
no choice la she got many sch work to do
jyjy oooo
hmm till here ba
im goin to see what danna doin outside the room???
oh well
lovesss

青い/葵

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♥ Friday, September 24, 2010

i wanna be with danna always
and hopin ourr rom go well and find
i dont want anything else but him to be with me the rest of my lifewalk down the road with me till we both grow old
and stil loving each other
hmmm
i know have been fighting with u lately when u r home
but my head all i want was u spentin all ur time with me
not goin any other place
but i guess im selfish and if put u at home u will be bored ):
so if i anyhow blow temper im sorry hope u understand and dont get mad at me
3days more u will be flyin off to wallaby
):
till u come back i must be good
3weeks time
im gonna die...lols
hais
hope danna come home soon from mj-ing
):
till here ba

青い/葵

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♥ Wednesday, September 22, 2010

upsad mode
stil feel u dont really understand me much
do u really understand what and why im upsad??
it not u i dont believe is ur friends and those gals there
hey my bf not ugly ok
stil got his manly side
and cute face
hais
i guess i make u angry most of the time hur
sorry
and u hardly blog about me le
i wonder why
u use to but now anymore ):
oh it ur choice
i see pple will blogg about they gettin rom and so and so
but since the day u propose
i dont seee u say about it?
hmmm
it ur choice too
count down to ur leaving for trainin ):
5days )):

青い/葵

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♥ Sunday, September 19, 2010

somehow i feel he is scare im gone?
maybe i feel wrong
i dont know
stil in lost mode):
give me a will to believe u really love me ): like u say before u fall asleep

青い/葵

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♥ Saturday, September 18, 2010

I ask if I'm really dead will u still be angry? Ur reply u will still be angry. Thanks to this ans I really very sad and I ask again and again u just told me off by tellin me can don't keep say die die die. All I asking was will u still be mad? Till now I still get the same and yes u will be mad); I'm cryin now while u fall sleep next to me. Are u so tired? Or sick and tired of me? Am I really not the gal u wanted? I being again by asking myself this qns , hope u will read my blog and sit down have a nice chat with me); but I don't know when will this chat I hope for come. How can I stop my cry?

青い/葵

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sally dear im not tryin to be emo
just that we have a bad fight today
hmmm
anyway
i hope we will be better now
im tired of fighing with him
i want a better life
if again that word come out from u how?
i really dont know if i can take it
):
somehow that word stil run inside my head
go away go away
do u really want this?
hmmm
i dont know ba
now i really ask myself this
how much is ur love for me now?
lesser and lesser le ba
if i tell u i can feel it with just one kiss from u?
will u believe me?
):

青い/葵

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the 1st time ever u blow so big temper on me
i really not that kind of preson who will really say sorry to u
or hong u like how u hong me when im in the wrong..
but when u r mad i know i must say sorry to u
deep down i am sorry
but i never really say out
it dont reallly come out of my mouth to say it..
i find it hard to say):
i tot this 1 years u already understand how im like ..
but i guess not
it seem like
u dont even know me and i dont even know u too
i dont know
we share the same bed and all
but
ask ourself the same qns
do u understand me much ?
or do i understand u much?
but i always try to make u smile haven i?
maybe to u
i didnt try hard enff ba
maybe everything i do now
is like nothing?
i dont know
u hardly told me anything too
):
i sad
i cry
sometime i cry
all u can say wasnt dont cry dear
after that nothing le
oh now u say i never once hong u
ok since u say so
never once
rem what u say ba
never once
maybe if i really leave le
u will be happy?
somehow from what i see now
u dont seem to be happy at all
im not giving u what u want
u flyin off to trainin soon
i really try not to have a fight with u
as nothing good come out from a fight we always have
but i guess
hais
i dont know what to do anymore
i wanna sit down and have a chat with u
it seem like
we always cant
i really dont know how to hold to this rs anymore
no matter how much i dont wanna let go
or are u tryin to let me go?
but im lost now
very lost
im tired so are u
somehow i wish to just die on the spot now
im sorry im not what u wanted

青い/葵

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♥ Wednesday, September 15, 2010

what will life be without u really by myside?
3weeks without u here
cant make a single phone call to u or a single sms to u too
this 3weeks will be like im totally alone man
im really super try not to spent so much money
and save more money for the rom
jy in everything i do this 3weeks without him tell me
dear it ok jyjy
ba...
dar ....
you're all i wanted
that ans to all what i wanted to ask u
ohya my baby vamp jun went army already
no more handsome and white jun jun
lols
no more last night little vamp
no one inside will treat u lke prince dear
i hope u get use to it
gambate my dear vampi
(:
sally misses u every single days without fail
till here ba

青い/葵

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♥ Tuesday, September 14, 2010

mr cedric koh jinkwang is my husband to be
and i love him much much
but somtime he make me sad
and si wang
i know i aint any better too
i do make him sad and si wang as well
i never say im good and like best
no im not
but i really try
to be the best for him
sometime i really dont see danna try in this rs
as sometime i look at him he like "i dont care" that face
hais
can i say this is him?the one im gonna be marry to
im happy and glad i get to know him
but sometime i put hope on him
high hope on him
and i dont get what i want i fall from high up
and i feel that hope of him is uselesss
the more hope i put
i more sad when he dont live up to those hope
rem that night
i told him i fall and hit my head
all he do was just reply me one sms
why cant he stop the game and come home and see how im goin?
danna u sure tell me,,, how can to stop the game
what if i hit my head and it bad
i die le how?
i hit my head lei...small matter?
my life or ur game?
then u lucky i stil alive and kickin
-.-"
hais
next week im goin to be alone to run clinic
so scary
i dont want to be alone sia
hais
i have to jyjy ba
:S
hate my fuckin job
hais

青い/葵

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♥ Friday, September 10, 2010

danna home early
(:
so good
long weekend (:
off to town today with danna
watch movie girl money
lols
R21 show
well
erm
dont ask me nice or not
i dont know how to tell u
lols
1st time i watch this kind of movie ne
:S
lols
after movie as promise danna bring me go replace my crystal
so good
*happy*
thanks u danna^^
taken some photos
cause today i wear my present that sweet buy for me de out ^^
finally can use it
((:
and home sweet home
danna went to play mj
leave me alone at home
*tao yen*
so here i am
bloggin
and after aimne xD
oh well
sleepy as well
i try to stay awake to wait for danna
till here then minna ^^
love love
oh as promise from danna he will more sweet to me
today somehow i find the sweet im lookin for
but
i dont know how long will it last?
hmmmm
oh well
ja ne

pretty me xD..lols

us

us xD

青い/葵

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♥ Thursday, September 9, 2010

));
today i cry at work place
seeing pt so ke lian
old le
alone
no one remind him when is the next appt
dont even know is there anyone who make sure he eat his medi)):
no one look after him
):
i swear i wont treat my dad and mom like how the pt son treat him
):
so sad lo
haisss
is not like i wanna cry is that fuckin bitch who ask me cry lo
ccb
wanna take me away
u wait!!!~cb
anyway
today is the day danna sold his bao bei for one year liao

青い/葵

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♥ Wednesday, September 8, 2010

it our anni today
happy anni danna(:
i now like sad sad):
danna sim spoil spoil de
cannt sms me tonight and tml i guess
):
so sad la
anyway some words wanna tell danna
maybe i may talk the same thing over and over again
danna i love u for who u r
i wont fate the love for u
i promise myself to make this rs work
i want this rs as much as u do
i just hope till the day we really rom
ur love for me will be back as like before
and
i try to listen to everything to u
be good
i just want u understand me more
and sweet to me more abit
danna...i dont know what will happen in the time down the road
but i swear i try everythin i can to make this rs last
hope u too
see u tml night(:
loves aoi

this job of mine aint that es
but
in the end kinda fun i guess
just jy jy more ba
i hope everything go well enff for me down the road of my job

i love my danna so bloody much :D
but he will go oversea soon D:
so sad la
i hope he go that time faster come back
day pass faster till 16 oct
lols

hais
i hope my baby got money to go back...
oh well
baby i love and miss u so much

i guess i have to jy in thing i do ba
D:
oh well
till here ba

青い/葵

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♥ Monday, September 6, 2010

am thinkin should i quit ?
i know no job is is relax and es
all job have it xin ku and hard
but i somhow think im not up to this job))):

and i hope and wish danna understand me and my job more then sayin me something )):
hais
but i need more money for many many thing comin on my life)):
haisss
i try tellin myself that i can do it
but it seem like the fact i cant
):
and 3more weeks till danna go oversea ne
and also
danna and me kinda talk
i guess that counted talk ba
i love him so much
so so much
i dont know ba
i choose to him give a chance to love me again
but im worry he cant
):
hear pain pain
hais
2 days to anni
i have nothing from danna
lol
somehow want a anni present from him :S
hmmm
sianed
);
and 2 days also AOI NEW SONG OUT!!!~
YEAHH
THANKS TO SWEET IM SO HAPPY I GOT TO SEE TH MV ALREADY
XDDDD
aoi sama damn damn handsome la
or is it cute?
ahya both la
xDDDD
and I WANNA BE THE GAL IN THE MV HUMPHHH
HERE THE MV
ENJOY MINNA
HAHAHAH
WAHAHHA

青い/葵

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♥ Sunday, September 5, 2010

just dont like the feelin of it.somehow i dont see danna understand me
)):

青い/葵D:

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♥ Friday, September 3, 2010

last time when i post about somthing u will come and ask me
dear u mean?
dear what wrong?why like this say?
now nothing
inside my heart this qns so long liao
is like always i have to ask u did u read did u read?
somtime u seem like u have
sometime u seem like not
i really wonder
now whatever i post is like nothing anymore
i find u hard to read now
so so tired
u say i nag
how nice if u to call ur gf oi
somehow i feel so much to cry so badly
cause
u never call me oi before
pples say there is a 1st time for everything
even plus callin ur gf oi?
i try hard not to always fight with u
i try to keep everything to myself already
i try hard le
but that word to me too painful coming out from u
which i never want it from u
but u say it after all
u dont understand why i keep ask u what time end and come back
u dont see and get my point
all u see was i keep nag
u think u everytime come back i wanna fight with u?
time i have with u is lesser like fuck already
and now u goin away soon
how many more weekend are we gonna spent together?and u think i want to fight?
now i crying
i dont even feel like tellin u
cause
what can u do?
come home and hug me?
u wont
all i want was time with u
come home early to rest with me as u told me u didnt sleep well yest
got wrong also?
now i just feel like it so so wrong in whatever i try to do in our rs
maybe to u i didnt try hard enff ba
dear god...pls stop me from crying
i dont wanna cry anymore
as
no matter how much i cry to him is nothing
cause he is use to me crying over and over again
im beggin you

dear baby gal of mine
i mis u so so much
hopin u r by my side
so i can hug u
stop me from crying

青い/葵

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